Crazy weekend

What a weekend, it was such a great time and unfortunately I wasn't able to appreciate it all.

My partner's mother was in town for the weekend, staying with us. She is a lot of fun.

Friday night we had dinner at a very cool contemporary restaurant just a couple of blocks away.

Saturday, we went on a winery tour. We had brunch at a very nice winery/bistro, then on to another for a wine tasting, and then finally to another winery who's scenery would rival if not eclipse any of the wineries in Napa or Sonoma, seriously.

Today for me started with church (which was chaotic, I may write about that later), then a very lazy afternoon and then a very nice dinner for us, my partner's mom, my partner's sister and her partner. Very nice, very cool. Very cool way to wrap up the weekend.

I am sitting by myself watching Family Guy right now as the weekend comes to a close.

I am so grateful for everything I have. I know I don't let my partner know how grateful I am for what he does. I spend my time either in confession for what I haven't done and the other half in joyous reflection for what I have.

What a weekend.

A little time in repose

I have had some time to reflect.

I'm not ok with my partner's complete dismissal of my calling to the priesthood. But, this might open up a different, more realistic path. That of the diaconate. To being an ordained deacon.

So I am being forced to be honest with myself. Maybe this is the calling I've had all along, I've never fancied going off to seminary, I've never quite fancied a complete separation from the secular world and I've always envisioned my role in the church as one of complete service. A deacon is a role of complete service, mainly to the bishop, but indeed to the church being served.

So perhaps this is an opportunity rather than an obstacle. An opportunity to recognize my true calling maybe? Who knows yet?

A bad turn

Right now I am having such a hard time with my calling vs my relationship with my partner.

He has become completely unsupportive. To the point of being combative.



This can't move forward without his support. I'm stuck.

I'm thinking the diaconate may be a choice. That is yet to be seen. He may very well be opposed to that as well, any ordained ministry may give him the creepy crawlies.

I am so troubled right now but I know God's will, will prevail.